Short version:
I feel like I have the brains to do my job and the ability is there. I make a lot of careless mistakes and feel overwhelmed by the intangibles of the consulting job and it doesn't help. I don't feel inspired by my leaders and find it hard when I and the people around me have to “do” more than think and solve problems.
Do I tell my performance manager that I have ADHD?
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It's been just over a year since I started working.
Though I am good at problem-solving, innovating, and finding solutions despite obstacles. I keep making reckless mistakes.
I am told I don't communicate well/enough or update on the status of a deliverable on time. I miss a lot of small details. It has affected my performance reviews too.
Even when I make an effort to resolve my communication issues, I still do something stupid like forgetting to attach a document when I do communicate.
I've had this problem for my entire life, and only recently did I get diagnosed so I am not sure how to work with it. I've always got the “He has a lot of potential, BUT.. concentration issues”
I am a sociable, and typically a likable and funny person. But it gets overwhelming to me when I have to talk so much, especially when a large portion of the meetings could just be emails.
It's frustrating because I feel like I have a lot of potential but I am just not living up to it. And I feel like I am not being understood.
Another frustrating part is I feel like I understand concepts or am able to learn things a bit quicker. And more often than not I do not feel challenged intellectually or feel that I am learning much from peers or seniors below the director level. I had originally joined the firm because I believed in my department head's vision but she left soon after I joined and I don't believe in who replaced her.
I have considered switching firms, but the market isn't good now and I should solve the deficiencies I feel before I make a switch. But also I feel like I am the problem and running away from my current firm isn't going to solve things.
I have been to MBB final interviews before but didn't make the cut essentially due to my careless mistakes so there's that. And it eats at me that I can be doing better but I am not.