Working at McKinsey was my only career plan since my early years of undergraduate studies. I studied a lot, practised a lot. However, I didn't succeed, things went wrong and I got nervous during the interview. I couldn't show my ability to crack the cases. And I devastated.
I will never apply other consulting firms, including BCG and Bain. It is obvious that both firms lack the prestige that McKinsey have. I ignore Big 4 or other consulting firms, since I don't consider them as a "consulting firm". And I don't even consider other jobs except consulting as a "job". For me, non-consulting jobs are too simple in terms of the work done, and way too easy to get a job offer. So, finding a job outside consulting is not a success for me.
In McKinsey, there are at least 2 years ban for rejected candidates. I will be eligible to apply only at the end of 2020. Even if I get a job offer 2 years later, I will never be a person who has never been rejected. I wanted to be a perfect McKinsey consultant. Getting rejected in the past will prevent me from being perfect. Being perfect implies being perfect at all times. Starting my career at McKinsey would be more superior than switching to McKinsey after starting at anywhere else.
I feel like that's the end of my life. Are there anything that I can do? Do you have any advices?