For context, I started in my respective position not too long ago. I have been on the bench for sometime (our team is barely getting any projects). So I wanted to build something useful in my time.
I saw that another department had a yearly thought leadership report on an industry that’s relevant to my team. So I thought it would be a good business development activity to build something similar with our touch. I thought it would help us be in touch with the market and possible projects.
I spoke to my PM about it including another manager, and directors in conversations telling them I had such and such idea. It wasn’t a priority then because it wasn’t chargeable work obviously and I didn’t want to put it over things I was assigned internally. Nevertheless, I did put some research together and a an outline for the report, what it could contain etc.
Now a little time has elapsed and we’re getting more desperate for projects. Not a week after the last conversation regarding this report, seniors put another associate (has time over me) as a lead on this project and the manager is proposing ideas that I told them word for word regarding the report.
I feel upset as I think I should have taken lead. I wanted to do so because I’ve had almost no chargeable work and I want to prove myself in any way before probation ends. I am also the most knowledgeable on the topic being researched by far within juniors given I was the only person to have meaningful experience in that area.
I hope I’m not rambling and was wondering how i should approach this situation and what I can do to learn for next time. I think I could have done better taking ownership of it more strongly but I didn’t feel it was my position to do so and take people away from things they are assigned to.
and in general how can I make best of my situation where I am not getting to be on projects?